Hey All, So I was sitting here working at the Coffee house and thought I'd post a blog real quick while I had time. Been thinking alot about you guys lately and really am curious as to how everyone is doing. Life is good this way. Trying to stay busy most of the time. Not very hard due to my job status right now. But I am enjoying living for the sake of living right now. It's actually been a pretty amazing week. God's shown me a lot and called me to do a lot o things for Him. I've been reunited with a lot of old-good friends. Some I never thought I'd talk to again. It's been interesting. I have had one person on my mind a LOT recently, he's a new christian and I hadn't talked to Him since he made his life-changing decision. But I have kept up with him through prayer. Then while hanging out at the mall before work, I ran into his mom and dad. They gave me a number to reach him, so I think it was God's way of saying call him and encourage him. He's been in a lot of trouble in the past, so this is an amazing victory for the Kingdom of Heaven, but it's also been a hard faught battle that he's still facing every day for him. His name is Nic, and if you would all keep him in your prayers... it would be greatly appreciated. Another cool/weird thing that has been happening. I've been waking up every morning at 4:04am. Exactly 4:04. But instead of being angry because I get little sleep the way it is... I just start praying for the people that come to mind. I think it's the best time that God can find to talk to me and stir in my heart because its the most quiet time I have in a day. It's been awesome though. I guess I should get off here and get back to work... but I had one more thought I wanted to share with you all. And perhaps it's me trying to make myself feel better.... but it really makes sense. Someone approached me the other day and mentioned that she ahd a son she'd like me to start hanging out with and possibly date now that I am single. And I looked at her kinda funny i'm sure. My engagement/relationship just ended and she's already trying to set me up with someone else. But I told her I actually was enjoying being single and planned to stay that way. At least for a long period of time. She was then shocked cause she said she'd never met a girl strong enough to not rebound to another relationship after a heart break. The theory of rebounding seems crazy to me... one hurt was enough, I sure dont need to. But my thought was...how amazing to know that through the strength of Christ, I can stand alone with Him and be encouraged and happy with singleness. The life I'm striving to live now is the one I wanted to live through my relationship... but couldn't. Because my full attention wasn't on God. I'm finding that I might not yet be mature enough to handle a relationship where God is completely in control. Because I tend to focus on the relationship as well as God. and pending the day which one is at the top of my list. So, I guess what i'm saying is.... even though its hard, if you are single... find the joy in it. You'll only have so many years of your life to give fully to God if you plan to get married. Cause you'll no longer be living fo ryou and God.... but for God, yourself, and another person. Seek out His will for you life now. I want to go back to Thrive and join the staff there, and I want to go to Grad school in Chicago. I want to live life to the fullest, drive to fast, stay up to late, and eat too much ice cream. Some of those things would be hard to do when I had someone else keeping me back here, cause in a relationship, it's 2 people. I'm enjoying keeping my plans between God and I. it's a lot easier for 2 to agree... than 3 on big plans for the future. Anyhow, enough ranting. I'm not even sure that all makes sense. But it's what has been on my mind. And I pray you were encouraged by it! Love you all! | 
